I used to live and die by My Plan. It was a useful plan and always got me to great places and has given me the ability to do amazing things. My Plan consisted of:
- working your tail off
- doing it all
- spinning lots of plates in the air
- not saying no
- and on and on....
Two and a half years ago, a delightful little wrench was thrown into My Plan: our beautiful, bouncy and personality-filled daughter. Suddenly, I found myself muscling through my tried & true plan and starting to lose myself more and more. My spinning plates started crashing to the ground, but I continued going, going, going under the false assumption that if I just kept doing what I'd always done, things would improve.
This year was the tipping point. It occurred to me during a late night of grading, school emails, and planning that when it came to the life of my daughter, I as her mother am the person who sees her the least. She's all we have and two years have gone by with me spending less time with her than I had spent with many of the kids in my classroom.
Have you ever had to choose between two passions?
I made that choice and, after many tears, of course my daughter came out leaps and bounds ahead.
Today is my last day in the classroom. I am choosing to take a leave of absence for the remainder of this year to be a mom. To be there for milestones, potty training, playdates, and all of the hundreds of things I have missed out on up to this point.
I have no idea where this path will lead. I am definitely nervous and I pray and hope every day that I am making the right choice.
It's My New Plan and I know it will be worth it. I will also continue my passion of blogging and sharing what has worked for me over these past ten years, so stay tuned for new posts and ideas of what I have loved doing. Sharing and connecting with you all has kept me going through so many tough times, you probably don't even realize, so I hope you will continue to indulge me by stopping by to read more of my ramblings :)
Thank you to each and every one of you.